How im adapting...

so today i have been feeling everyones anxiety. I have felt sick to my stomach all day. my blood pressure was 133/68 but my pulse was 74. maybe thats not weird but it is for me. All i want to do is cry. I touched the baby's face at lunch and had to chock back the tears. Joshua told me a joke and i almost bawled. Its just like the world around me is falling apart. And when i started missing my significate other well there he was walking down the road with his bitch and her new dog. Of course no kids were with them. So i have decided to lighten my heart by thinking about what i have and well we can never forget what i dont have.

My kids have...
1. no parent on parent fights. ( my kids dont have to listen to me and my husband fight all night or day)
2. food
3. Family
4. Pets ( even if they are fish well thats a pet)
5. Shelter (its not that nice but it will do for now)
6. Summer Fun


What i adore...
1. Watching my kids learn new things...
This week Owen started standing without holding on to things.
owen also can walk a few steps without assistance
Joshua is shaping up to his own starting to get smart. Wow im scared of his teen years.

2. trying new foods.
Owen: Lucky charms, Ice cream cones so cute
3. Sleep
4. AC
5. Freedom
6. Dreaming about the future i could have.

What i covet...sorry it happens... i guess
1. Love
2. A husband.
3. can i covet my own husband well that too.
4. A house
5. Happiness
6. Pleasure

What i desperately would love, but would also give me grief is magic. You know powers. Like the power to help people. Save people bring people back. Only problem is u cant help everyone and how do u choose who to help and who to not. Also then id have the problem of families who i didnt make it in time to save angry and ready for revenge. It would be so unfair to those in danger and to me to have to make the decision of who to help and who not to. and i might end up selfish. deciding to help my family and friends before strangers. Plus id be vain caz id be able to fix my hair and shave off my weight with a flip of my hand. touch my hair and its beautifully curled. A quick spin and id have small sexy hips and perky breast.

What would be so cool. transform into an animal u choose when u choose to. Like id be a lioness when in danger. then a bird to escape and hide what i can do from all.