shit sandwich and more

Okay they say when life give you peanuts make peanut butter. okay so if life give you shit do you get a shit sandwich.

okay is not all that bad. i have what i need but i am ready for a happily ever after. where is it? who took my happily ever after. maybe its like the xbox at walmart. they only have 4 in stock and they are on a first come first service basis. so does that mean all sold out of happily ever afters. which brings me to a new point. I believe happiness is a decision not just a state of being. we choose to be happy with what we have or we choose to be miserable. so then maybe this is my happily ever after. maybe im not happy because i chose not to be happy. so what i need to do is be happy with my settings because only i can choose to be happy and live happily.

Okay so im choosing to be happy. i am making my life a happy one to live and observe. i am inforcing a new policy with me and the children. after what brian did this week i saw a big change in my 2 older boys. they took pride in bulling each other the louder one would scream for help the more the other would laugh. same thing there dad did to me this week.
So our new moto: No HIT give a hug. when ever they want to hurt the other one they have to instead hug them. if your brother makes you mad, hug him. if they are driving me crazy im to hug you. Time outs are totally inforced also.

In time i will invite a man into my life, to join our happily ever after but only if he has his own decision to be happy no matter what. I need him to choose to be happy not think okay you dont make me happy. i can not make anyone happy they have to decided with who they are to actively be happy. and thats what i am. i am going to be actively happy with or without a man by my side. if someone should join my path and we together be actively happy i would most appriecate that but if not i wont die without a husband. I need not a husband. yes i enjoy sex and all that marriage has to offer but I do not depend on it to be as i am. I will be sad to see my bed empty for so long but rejoice in the peace that is to follow. Wrapping my thoughts around the joy my children see in our world. the way they light up at the sight of a baseball. and the happy cries they release at the thought of a getting ice cream. If a man cant understand why i would love the joys of a child, then that is his lose. My children are from God and i charish them. So that is what ive decided. I will be happy everyday and everynite alone or with someone my home will have peace and harmony.
I will strive for success and in return will guide my children into successful lives full of happiness.