Update

B and I are still separated. I miss him everyday, but I'm not ready to go back to mean days. My youngest boy is getting big. He is rolling over and watching tv. He adores his grandpa. Loves his daddy, like the other boys do.
A my middle son is getting into everything. Today he tried using Grandma's back medicine roll as lipstick. He rubbed it all over his mouth and started crying. If you have never used the stuff it is hot like jalopanios. very very hot. So of course his lips looked like a movie stars all puffed up and red. I felt bad but it was funny all at the same time. He climbs to the ceiling if the roof would not stop him, he would go to the sky. He defends himself nicely. he is a fighter. ready at the last moment to take anyone who gets in his way down. Scared of his future.
My oldest started preschool. He loves it. runs to the bus, cries if he can't go. Don't know what he does there all day but he likes it.

WHAT I LEARNED THIS WEEK:
AFTER ALL THESE YEARS OF BEING OUT OF HIGH SCHOOL I STILL HATE IT. Wednesday I had to sub for special ed at the high school. some of the students were so rude. classes were very boring, i kind of wanted to sleep in class. ONe of the subs was scary. I felt bad for students, good thing that was a bad class.
It all reminds me of how I felt bad in high school. How I felt outcasted and self consious. Kids are still very mean. I watched how they picked on each other or fought for a guys attention by humiliating each other.